HUGS.........
Sorry, that's all I have for you.
BIG OLE HUGS.

I found that I just could not plug the jug on my own. I had to get in a program of action. I had to have some help. I found it in a room of aa saved my life. I know I would be dead if I hadn't of found that room. I was dieing. It doesn't have to be that way. Cmon
1is2many

Heart, you have been on a rough run, but you are here and wanting to stop. I agree with 1is2, you might want to look into a program. Most cost nothing and it is a great way to be around others like us.

Hang in there. Keep posting.

Drink a lot of water, get outside for a brisk walk everyday, and buy a good motivational book. Do you go to church or are you a member of some activity groups? What's your work schedule like? Keep your house clean and stay busy in these early days. Keep us updated hugs. We're all friends here.

Your post reminded me of the horrible cycle of alcohol abuse.m I've known that feeling you have for so long. It's a tough day and feeling to get through. You need to find a way to stay sober, one minute at a time. I'm really want you to feel better and get healthy. I want you to feel good. I'm rootin for you to find a plan that works. This post breaks my heart.

I'm very sorry about your nephew and mom as well. They would want you to not destroy yourself. They want you happy and thriving.

Thank you everyone, I'm going to try AA again and give more of myself to the program. The reason I was so mad at myself was just shy of a month. This last couple of weeks has been very emotional and knowing this weekend is going to be hard on me 1 year since my Mom passed my best friend is coming to visit with plans of walking in the woods and working on my garden. My life depends on my sobriety stress, chain smoking and binged drinking almost took my life! I'm still here for a reason it was the widow maker and I just happened to be in the hospital with my mom! God must have a plan for me so I'm going to start honoring him by living healthy. Much Love to you all!

My story is so similar , my dad got sick and I had to go watch him in the hospital. I was able to break the cycle for just a few weeks ... Then he passed. I miss him but he would be happy knowing I haven't had a drink in awhile.

My prayers will include you tonite and you can and will get sober

1is2many

You have my deepest sympathy on your loss.

It sounds like you need alot of support and AA is a great place to find that support.

I remember losing my mother to alcoholic liver sirosis, then my girlfriend of 2 years dumped me for another guy, and then I lost my job, and this all happened within about a 2 month period. I honestly didn't want to live anymore....but I got through it and you will too. I am not saying it was easy, because it wasn't but I got through it with the help of family and friends who gave me the support I needed at the time.

It was years later that I neglected to take advantage of my support system and began drinking my troubles away but what I was actually going was just making them worse. AA helped me out alot. Now I live my life by the 12 steps of AA and I have never been happier!
I wish the same for you.

God Bless!

Hugs!!! Hugs!!! Hugs!!!

Sounds like life has been throwing some tough stuff at you. Keep positive a look to a better future.

Yes that is a lot to go through. I will send a prayer to my higher power for you. I just want you to know it is possible to get through all this pain though. I have lost both my parents, Step sister, sponsor and a few friends since I have gotten sober. Sending some love and support your way.