Hi. I am in recovery, clean and sober. My significant other & I met at my home meeting, and he broke up with me for the last time, and I am not going there in order to heal, to not see him, to let myself grieve with privacy. I'm finding myself not replacing those meetings, making excuses. Anyone relate? I have never gone a week without meetings before. It's like I can see how easy it is to form a new habit. It's like, the situation was isolating because only I knew how this person who is popular treated me, and I don't want to be in a position to see or hear about him, and this is working so far for me to heal. I need to go to new meetings. Anyway I though I'd put this out there to get myself accountable. It's like, here I am, feeling safe to express myself here but in public at my home meetings, NOT. Ok I have other meetings I can go to. I need a push. Not only this, but step 9 is hanging over my head and the list is pretty stagnant, not moving forward with this much. I'm reading Big Book daily, journaling, keeping in touch with my sponsor and a few people, just sort of in limbo right now. I'm glad a friend referred me here yesterday.
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