I drank a lot of wine also. I liked both grape and rice wines and drank too much of each. I knew that I had a problem, when I finished a bottle of wine or sake, I opened another bottle.

I trusted myself that I had the power to quit and I made it. Others need support groups like AA, but I have the personality, where groups are more of a hindrance for me. You need to find out which way is your calling and follow it. You can try AA and if it is not good for you, try something else. I tried AA, LifeRing and Smart Recovery. Nothing helped, until I learned Mindful mediation. That did the trick for me. Each of us is unique. You need to find what works best for you. Trust yourself and go for it.

I didn't like wine and would only drink it when all else was gone
I suggest trying to figure what is the need to booze it up. Why did I drink? To escape from me

It is possible to turn the tables on booze if you want to

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Clean healthy eating and physical exercise help me more than any meeting ever did

I had enough of wasting my life away...and if I wasn't wasting it away feeling physically and mentally ill, I was simply risking it. If I kept it up I would be in jail or 6 feet under. The choice was simple.

Other people pointing out my drinking made me defensive. It was only when I honestly pointed it out to myself and accepted it was out of control and killing me that any change was possible!

Hello iacceptme,

When I was drinking I genuinely believed my own excuses and the ways I used to justify it. Then there came a day when I could no longer con myself. At that point I admitted that drinking was a big problem and reluctantly became willing to face reality. Later I also came to accept that reality and the fact that my own attempts at sobriety were likely to be no more successful than they had been in the past. At that point I became willing to do whatever it took to get sober.

My wife also pointed out my drinking, although she never nagged about it. At the end of the day, it was my responsibility to fix the problem. The alternative to doing nothing had become much more fearful than swallowing my pride and looking for help.

Are you willing to seek help?

I'm glad you came back here, that's a good start. You will find what works for you.

iacceptme.....like your name...how is it going?