God bless everyone in this community, I think I have a little bit of an idea of the pain you are in. This is my second time joining the Alcohol community. The first time I never participated b/c I thought you had to be the kind of alcoholic who once they start drinking doesn't stop until they puke or pass out. For me, I take an antidepressent for obsessive compulsive disorder- obsessive worrying, anxiety attacks, and depression- and drinking brings back my symptoms immediately. Yet I continue to drink. I have 1-5. Usually 2-3. Frequently b/c I am in college. I am starting a fulltime job monday and I know that will help keep me out of trouble. I just want to be happy. And my boyfriend drinks a lot. I write a lot about him in my journal. I think I should break up with him but my fear of regret is too strong. That's all for now I guess.
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