well i just about blew it.... totally by accident... my son is living with us while the escrow closes on his soon to be his first home. well he is a drinker (thanks to my wonderful influence) and he asked if i would mind if he kept and drank beer in front of me.. i said yes as i haven't had a real urge to have a beer for along time.
well i got off work the other day and being a smoker, i don't smoke in the house so the garage is my sanctum. i have a fridge there that i keep jugs of water, my new beer,. i was hot tired and not thinkin, reached in for a water and purely out of habit, grabbed a beer, my favorite kind too, turned around with finger in the tab and just happened to look down and saw the beer!! holy crap i says to me... i put it back and got my water. my wife doesn't think i should forbid booze in the house, as i have to learn to be around people who drink (our boys and other friends oh yeah and her..)) she has codependency issues. i reckon she is right but i kinda wish she could give me a little more time sober.. oh well can't have everything...
i guess what i am saying is that out of pure habit/normality of the old me,, i could have stumbled and drank the beer ... it has happened before when i had quit for awhile.. and usually once i realize what i did, i would get totally pissed at me and of course continue to drink!!!! we all know that story... i honestly think if i would have taken that first drink i would have had the control to put it down and not kick myself tooo hard, thanks to the support and sharing from yall....
i just thought i would share, as it brought to mind bublygirls slip. she was able to get back on board, right quick without beating herself up... so thanks bubbly, and the rest of you.. duane