Alcohol Recovery Without 12 Steps Community Group

This group was created to explore various recovery paths for Alcoholism. We generally chose to explore paths outside of the AA model, or ones which incorporate, but are not limited to AA. Anyone wanting to learn and explore how to become free from alcohol addiction are welcome. Our main goal is to support each other with compassion and decency, while remaining open minded...

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keepitsimple247j 08/19/2011

today i woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something. my emotions were EVERYWHERE. i was so manic, but irritable and annoyed, and sad, and angry. at the end of the night tonight i honestly wanted to get drunk to just get the feeling to temporarily vanish for awhile. but i ended up crying and staying at home. i hate the feeling of depending on alcohol to make you "feel better" and for those emotions to "go away". it is so hard just saying out loud. i know i am going to have days like these, i just need to stay strong for myself and my future and remember what is more important, my life.

deleted_user 08/19/2011

Hia! Oh boy can I relate! Last night I felt the same. I had been beating myself up all day over beating myself up! I didn't drink and woke up feeling so well. I'm really proud of you not picking up a drink!

Mandoman 08/19/2011

Sorry you had a bad day. Wish I could tell you that they go away eventually but that's not how life works. Having bad days is just part of being human but we alcoholics love to try and hide from them. We tell ourselves the lie that alcohol will make it better for awhile but it doesn't. The problems we hide from are still there and we just end up making more problems which cause more bad emotions and feelings which gives us something else to hide from.

Hang in there. Life will always suck from time to time but it does get easier to deal with things over time.

ExJerseyGirl2 08/19/2011

It's tough because not drinking when we are so used to it makes us even more irritable and emotional. I think it gets easier because we get used to dealing with life on life's terms, without the haze of alcohol, and without getting pissed that we no longer drink to numb out the bad stuff.

Great job! You should feel proud of making it through these rough spots.

keepitsimple247j 08/20/2011

Thank you all so much. I feel it is a big accomplishment that I stayed in tonight safe and sound away from temptation. I know that I want my sobriety so much more this time. It was so hard. I wanted to punch my fist through a door or cement or glass and throw things. but I eventually calmed down..

deleted_user 08/20/2011

I can relate, and I think we have to step out of ourselves a little (when this happens) to remind ourselves that the feeling will pass. It always passes.......but when I was drinking, I was too impatient to let it pass, and I immediately medicated with alcohol.

So some of this is having the patience to allow these feelings to run their natural course, as opposed to immediately running for the bottle.

GOOD JOB though- you handled it well.

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