To make a long story as short as possible. My love is a 43 year old man. He has been through crack, drinking and finally oxys. He ended up in the hospital twice after quiting the pills. He has been off of crack for two years, doesn't drink a drop and after the last withdrawl bout from the pills, seemed to be living clean and healthy. Between the two of us we have 6 kids ages 10 to 22 and a 4 yr old granddaughter. We are raising the 4 youngest together. He sore he was "done" with all of it and has appeared to be doing well, going to church, got a new joob he loves, etc... I have been through so much with him, I know him well. I felt like he started using pills agian a couple of months ago. He finally came clean (had to,I found text messages that confirmed it) this weekend. He now is telling me, he started just taking one every now and then to get energy and work better not thinking he would have to go through the "awful sickness again". He said before he knew it he was getting sick so he got another pill and so on. He now tells me he has gotten some pill (go figure) that starts with an "S" that doesn't get you high but helps keep you from getting "sick" as you withdraw from the oxys? Addicts lie, as we all know. He swears he wants to be clean and sober but he wants to take these pills to avoid the sickness. He says he only has six pills and starting tomorrow he is going to take one a day and then he should be fine. I don't know an oxy from asprin! Has anyone heard of such a thing, or is it a lie so that I don't freak over him taking pills? Since I found out he went back to them, I have been seriously considering giving up and moving on. We have only been living together 3 years and I don't know how much more I am supposed to or can endure! Please tell me if I am being "played again" Thank you for listening. I was married to a drunk for 20 years. I understand I can't fix him only he can but I don't know what to believe. He did get off crack and put the booze down never to go back. I thinks he wants to be clean for me and the kids but... Who knows??? I don't!