I have social anxiety that is stopping me from friends and potential relationships in high school. For the relationship part, I just think I’m straight up ugly so it may not even be the social anxiety. I’m a dark skin girl and guys have always made it clear nowadays in person, online, in the media, in the news, that’s they think we are ugly while praising white and light skin girls. I have some good friends but even when I’m having conversations with them, my anxiety keeps telling me to shut up cause they don’t care, and they don’t want to look at my ugly face. So I do just that and I shut up. Because of that I don’t get invited to a lot of places because one, I can’t make friends, and even the friends I have think I don’t do well with groups of people which is true but I feel left out. i honestly think me being ugly is the source of all my problems. I’ve been told I could model but when people say that I think they mean those “unique looking” models which is just code word for “ugly.” It’s even sadder when they say that because I can’t rven take pictures. I can’t take selfies because I literally have no good angles. All my features are wrong. Even in friends photos I look disgusting, and unappealing. And so that leads to me telling my friends I don’t wanna take pictures with them or be on their story because I don’t want to punish the people looking at them with my unsightly face. I’m sorry, I’m just not okay at all.