I have a phone appointment in a couple minutes. It's the job centre and I hope they are calling me to find out if I'm still on the autism diagnosis waiting list. I don't know for definite what they are calling for so I can't prepare for it. I have a fear of answering phones but it helps when I know what time and date they are calling. I don't want to get sanctioned. I haven't been looking for jobs because my last work coach said I didn't have to if I was on the mental health programme, but it's not in writing so I might get sanctioned for not keeping to the agreement. Instead I have been doing some courses so it doesn't look so bad.

The guy from the mental health programme thinks that I am just shy and not going out because of pandemic panic. He must've forgotten about the hundred times that I told him I had this problem since way before the pandemic. He has also told me to go out jogging, also purposely forgetting that I am fat. I have ankle and knee problems because of my weight and he wants me to go jogging which is high impact, so I can lose weight. I told him I was gonna do cycling indoors instead. He wasn't happy. I accidentally made this into a vent but I didn't meant to. Sorry.