Today, my brain is breaking. And when it feels like this, my rational thought process and ability to communicate just go out the window. 

I feel like the decisions that people make around me just make me question my reality, and the responsibilities that I maintain. And then the feelings and frustration kicks in. I wonder how I am supposed to maintain rational thought process when people around me make decisions that affect me negatively. 

One of the situations that is breaking my brain today, is my roommate's decision to go and spend money when he should be saving money so that he can move out of my home in a month and a half. And whether or not I have the right to be upset by his spending instead of saving. 

The other situation is one that constantly is going on with work. Right after I started working for the company, the owner asks me to change the business name, which we go over options and he picks one, yet now over a year after making the change he still has not done what is required for changing the name, which is using the name that he came up with. Instead he reverts to a name that we no longer are supposed to use. (I even gave him the option when we were making the change to use the name that he calls us all the time.) And then when I try to discuss it, his argument is that is our name...and I don't have the right to tell him that. Which technically is true...I don't have the right to tell him how to run his company. And with this idea comes the idea that I care about the company that I work for and that my title within the company should allow me to be able to do things like tell him that he needs to stop referring to us as a different name or that our prices need to update to allow us the ability to do the things that he wants to do (but any time that I make a suggestion he either doesn't listen, puts up an argument about it's his company, or runs out of the office and ignores me for the rest of the week.) He has no clue how to actually manage his own time so that he can do everything he wants to, but he still wants to have the ego boost that comes with him controlling every aspect of his company. 

More often then not it is mostly okay, but today just seems extra as I feel like I have to control my emotions, be able to have rational communication, cover my own responsibilities, and maintain my life style while I am frustrated about the decisions of other people and managing how I feel about those decisions, and whether the frustrations and feelings in my head have any merit on reality. Or whether it is just my expectations of the people and world surrounding me.