Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety Support Group
Agoraphobia is an anxiety disorder, often precipitated by the fear of having a panic attack in a setting from which there is no easy means of escape. As a result, sufferers of agoraphobia may avoid public and/or unfamiliar places. In severe cases, the sufferer may become confined to their home, experiencing difficulty traveling from this "safe place."
It's been a long time since I"ve been here. Longer since I've talked about this to anyone but my husband. Sometimes friends don't want to know. They look away, change the subject. I don't want to overburden them but I do want a real friend to know the real me. That is not to be for now I suppose.
My dad was my abuser. We've been apart for a long time. He will tell you a different story, about my lack of forgiveness, etc. With my level of anxiety my counselor long ago advised me not to be around him too much. I was also afraid when my children were young that he would bother them. They are grown now.My mother is gone now, long since. He is remarried. He has made no attempt to see my kids since '09.
So that's the sum up to show context for today. I am gearing up to have dinner with them tomorrow night. My teenager will be there and my husband.They will be my rocks. My marriage isn't even that stable but in this he supports me. I think we both see no point to this visit after all. I am not angry, just realistic. It will be a charade. But I will walk through it and try to be kind to this old man.
Yet today in spite of not worrying all week about it, I am scared suddenly, sick to my stomach like I am being in the same room with him. I'm really scared.
I have klonipin I take only rarely for anxiety or sleep. I hope it helps. I have that and I am doing housework. I hope to sleep later. Praying lots too.
Thank you for listening.
My dad was my abuser. We've been apart for a long time. He will tell you a different story, about my lack of forgiveness, etc. With my level of anxiety my counselor long ago advised me not to be around him too much. I was also afraid when my children were young that he would bother them. They are grown now.My mother is gone now, long since. He is remarried. He has made no attempt to see my kids since '09.
So that's the sum up to show context for today. I am gearing up to have dinner with them tomorrow night. My teenager will be there and my husband.They will be my rocks. My marriage isn't even that stable but in this he supports me. I think we both see no point to this visit after all. I am not angry, just realistic. It will be a charade. But I will walk through it and try to be kind to this old man.
Yet today in spite of not worrying all week about it, I am scared suddenly, sick to my stomach like I am being in the same room with him. I'm really scared.
I have klonipin I take only rarely for anxiety or sleep. I hope it helps. I have that and I am doing housework. I hope to sleep later. Praying lots too.
Thank you for listening.
I love the name of your acct too. It's calming and affirming that we are more than this and we can conquer our anxiety.
I don't feel angry. But I do feel weird and scared about seeing him tonight. I'm glad I won't be alone.
I don't know about you but I've been quiet awhile and the conversation helps me, also helps to converse with others and help them back.