I really wish my teachers were more understanding of my condition! I work very hard on my schoolwork, but never achieve what my friends without ADD can. Often times I would have studied more than anyone else in my classes, but still recieve unsatisfactory grades. Looking at my test grades, my teachers lecture me and tell me how I need to work harder, eventhough that would be impossible. As a 16 year old with ADD taking 3 AP classes, I often fall behind in subjects that I am uninterested in. Since AP biology doesn't interest me, I fell behind in that class. I would sit at home and re-read my asssignments, but nothing clicked. Even worse, my teacher would call me out for my unsatifactory grades, and enforce to the class how I need to improve my efforts. These moments make me want to cry, but nobody would understand. But the main isssue in our schools is not the lack of understanding, but the lack of respect and sympathy for those who are different.
I’m not sure what to do. I don’t feel safe in my own mind?? Like my mind feels crazy and I’ve started to cut myself which I know isn’t good. But everything is really dark and I don’t know how to explain this to people without scaring them or making them uncomfortable in order to get help.
Two years ago, I attempted to end my life....wow. I cannot believe I just put that in writing, or express how grateful I am that I am alive to write those words and share that I am on the other side of this battle. I had no idea that my attempt would lead to so much change, and how much my life would be affected, as well as the lives of those around me. I was admitted into the hospital, and then...