ADHD / ADD Support Group
Attention deficit/hyperactivity disorder (ADHD) and attention deficit disorder (ADD) are more common than you might think. It is a syndrome that exhibits symptoms such as hyperactivity, forgetfulness, mood shifts, poor impulse control, and distractibility. Join others who suffer from these conditions and share your experiences.
Hi, I don't know whether I have ADD or ADHD but I'm going to put my money on the latter since I'm as hyperactive as a mexican jumping bean, and only stimulants have ever calmed me down. I've been in love with them since age 16 in illegal forms, and recently discovered the legal varities THANK GOD because I've finally been able to hold down a job, remain calm and relatively in control of my emotions most of the time, and have figured out how to best handle negative relationships. Ritalin has been a godsend for me though vyvanse is even better, and I did obtain a prescription for it.
However, i did not renew, and never went back to the doctor for another prescription because I'm a complete and total addict to the stuff and can NEVER control my usage. The best i can ever do is keep "a few" until the next day, but i can easily go through 20 pills in a night. So the doctors were right to not want to give me ritalin, and the vyvanse doctor was right to not want to give in to my demands, BUT i found a solution and wanted to share it with anyone in my situation because it's genius!!
I just thought of it five minutes ago... it probably only applies to people living alone who don't have someone to give their pills to..but the idea is to simply take what i need for the day, and maybe for the next day (ie 2-4 pills) and throw the rest into the mail, and mail to back to myself :) Its cheap, can be done ass small package or crushed/released from capsules in flat envelope, no cross-border nothing so nothing to fear of inspection, legal i think anyhow, and its out of my hands for an unknown number of days so i really do lose control of it, which is the only way i would ever be getting another prescription. With this idea in hand, i feel very confident i'll be ok now, one big major SIGH of relief for me, since the drugs works wonders.. so good that when i'm working at 5am and in the zone, i just can't manage to stop and fool my stupid self into thinking i can work on my own projects (i'm a programmer) right up until my day job starts. I've managed many times but the last few have been torturous and even though my job is secure, i'll be tempted to quit if i have to endure another day on zero sleep, zero rest, 100% mind exhausted from coding 12 hours no breaks, no food, no liquids. If there was such a think as "Torture via Computer Programming", as defined in the Hague convention, I could certainly qualify as an expert witness LOL
All this to say... I have many good ideas in life.. but this re-mailing idea for my own personal benefit level is probably the best idea I've had in five or ten years. It could be useful for all sorts of people who over-use legal or illegal drugs but are smart enough to know better before they are wired what is in their best interest. I guess this could be listed under harm reduction. Hope it helps somebody else because up until now I was downright lost for solutions and things were spiraling out of control the more i abstained completely in order to control my addiction. I really was stuck beyond paying a neighbor or landlord to hold them for me and give me daily dose, but that was really feeling even more pathetic of a solution than anything else, dragging another human being into my problems even more money just seems wrong.
Hallelujah! I'll be sure to check back here in a few weeks and let you all know how it goes. I hope i'm not alone in this situation by the way because if i am, well, i guess i have egg on my face and should feel kind of stupid, but these eggs were just so perfectly done they taste good anyhow.
However, i did not renew, and never went back to the doctor for another prescription because I'm a complete and total addict to the stuff and can NEVER control my usage. The best i can ever do is keep "a few" until the next day, but i can easily go through 20 pills in a night. So the doctors were right to not want to give me ritalin, and the vyvanse doctor was right to not want to give in to my demands, BUT i found a solution and wanted to share it with anyone in my situation because it's genius!!
I just thought of it five minutes ago... it probably only applies to people living alone who don't have someone to give their pills to..but the idea is to simply take what i need for the day, and maybe for the next day (ie 2-4 pills) and throw the rest into the mail, and mail to back to myself :) Its cheap, can be done ass small package or crushed/released from capsules in flat envelope, no cross-border nothing so nothing to fear of inspection, legal i think anyhow, and its out of my hands for an unknown number of days so i really do lose control of it, which is the only way i would ever be getting another prescription. With this idea in hand, i feel very confident i'll be ok now, one big major SIGH of relief for me, since the drugs works wonders.. so good that when i'm working at 5am and in the zone, i just can't manage to stop and fool my stupid self into thinking i can work on my own projects (i'm a programmer) right up until my day job starts. I've managed many times but the last few have been torturous and even though my job is secure, i'll be tempted to quit if i have to endure another day on zero sleep, zero rest, 100% mind exhausted from coding 12 hours no breaks, no food, no liquids. If there was such a think as "Torture via Computer Programming", as defined in the Hague convention, I could certainly qualify as an expert witness LOL
All this to say... I have many good ideas in life.. but this re-mailing idea for my own personal benefit level is probably the best idea I've had in five or ten years. It could be useful for all sorts of people who over-use legal or illegal drugs but are smart enough to know better before they are wired what is in their best interest. I guess this could be listed under harm reduction. Hope it helps somebody else because up until now I was downright lost for solutions and things were spiraling out of control the more i abstained completely in order to control my addiction. I really was stuck beyond paying a neighbor or landlord to hold them for me and give me daily dose, but that was really feeling even more pathetic of a solution than anything else, dragging another human being into my problems even more money just seems wrong.
Hallelujah! I'll be sure to check back here in a few weeks and let you all know how it goes. I hope i'm not alone in this situation by the way because if i am, well, i guess i have egg on my face and should feel kind of stupid, but these eggs were just so perfectly done they taste good anyhow.
My sleep problem is similar to yours- stay up all night till 3am, totally exhausted. I don't use any prescription and fear of those medicines to my body. My body and mind just never allow myself to rest, to feel tired at normal bed time like everyone else. I struggle with this for years. I need good sleep routine in order to have energy and concentration at work. How can I do to break this bad habit and live like a normal person? Anyone? Please advice and share your tips...
Bless you, but you are in serious need of help and I hope you get it.
The problem with your plan is, not only is it illegal to mail drugs thru the mail (land you in jail big time), but you are sending the problem right back to yourself.
Please talk to your doctor about your abusive of meds and how you really want the benefits instead of the addiction. With time I hope he can help you work this out. I do know for a fact you can't do it alone.
I wish you well and hope with the help and guidance of your doctor you get there.