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maryn07 05/25/2013

So I've been away for quite some time. I WANT to say that there's been SO MANY things that have been keeping me from here....busy, busy, busy...but...nope....I know exactly what I'm doing. Focusing on all the wrong things and putting my recovery on the back burner. "I'll get to it, I just have to do this or that first." That's what I have been telling myself. Focusing on my relationship with my significant other rather than focus my energy on me. Relationships with others are important, but the "relationship" I have with myself is the priority first. And I've been skirting around that with all the other "important" things that realistically aren't the priority.

I truly hope that you are all well. I really have missed being here.

Maryn

Messenger2010 05/27/2013

Hi Maryn,

I do think our priorities have ebbs and flows... I often think I am doing great and then - BANG - I figure out I may not be as serene and at peace as I thought I was...

I have through time, looked at my relationship with myself as a full time job... I can't take it for granted... and the more I work at it, the less it seems to be work and is just part of my daily routine...

Dave

1911A1 05/29/2013

One of our slogans says, "When I got busy I got better." I think that's true up to a point, because many of us have a tendency to sit around and ruminate, which can be risky business sometimes. (A wise old-timer in my home group, who sadly lost his battle with cancer last year, was fond of saying "If you take a trip inside your own head, never go alone...always bring a friend.")

There is also a risk in getting too busy, and you described it very well, Maryn. There have been times in my recovery when I have felt so good, alive, and effective that I spread myself too thin without realizing it. Next thing you know, old character defects begin to take over because I haven't been working self-care and/or spiritual practice.

Thanks for the timely reality check, and it's nice to hear from ya!

deleted_user 05/29/2013

(((((Maryn)))))

Glad you Popped in... And thanks for your Share... You Pretty Much expressed my Current Life style as well... Always placing my Focus on everything & everyone but me, and in the mean time, slowly but surely lossing the ground I once made! It is Tough sometimes to stay "In the Moment" of My Recovery...

Seems Life is always Tuggin at me wether I'm ready or not! I Needed your Reminder today of all days, so I'm Very Grateful you Popped in and Openly put it out there...

Hope to Hear More of Where ya Been & How :) Thanks for dropping in :)

Love & Prayers we Can BOTH Get back on track

ONENESS....

maryn07 06/03/2013

It's funny how this internal voice inside me always chimes in when I've been away from my recovery work for too long. It starts out as a soft whisper and if I don't get back on track quick enough, it becomes this constant hum that gets louder and louder until I do what I need to do. I always feel a sense of peacefulness when I'm back on track::) Part of the work is staying on track.....that is sometimes the challenge.

Messenger2010 06/07/2013

Eventually, for me at least, the track is becomes a way of life, I do what I need to do to stay on it... and it happens naturally... it is a wonderful feeling...

deleted_user 06/25/2013

Oh I still lose my way alot!!!LOADS!!! *giggle* I usually end up 'taking stock' and re-prioritizing only when I am in so much pain there seems little alternative!!!
Lovely to see you Maryn ! Hope you are well too!

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