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A couple of weeks ago, I turned on my computer in the morning and it did not boot up. It gave me the two dreaded options of reformatting my hard drive or gonig back to factory settings. Neither appealed to me. I chose the second and the chaos began.
Now when I bought that computer, I loaded it up with every bit of memory that would fit, the biggest hard drive too. I did not want to have to replace it in a year or two. But the down side of that was, though it had been great for years and years, it is old. So I spend to last weeks installing the updates until I finally realized that I needed to move on. The other one I'd gotten working, witohut my programs of course. Those were all lost. But it was time. I loaded up every flash drive I had and got ready to bite the bullet.
I had my father's computer in the attic, and it had been on my mind to switch to it. It was already set up wireless and so was his laptop which I also had. I'd been lax about updating that too. Yes, there is a point to all this. When I did get the computer up and running nad the updates in from the two years it sat, I had to decided about all those files I had so carefully copied. When I though I'd lost my hard drive on the old one, I was in a panic over not having those thousands of files. Research, old pictures, e-mails, tons of stuff.
The conclusion I came to was that, there is a lot of stuff I had trhat I'd moved from computer to computer over the years that I'd deemed as essentail, but hadn't looked at or needed in forever. So this has allowed me to really look at them in light of what I really need to "load" myself down with again.
I also had to look at how much time I spend staring at the computer when I could be working or in the garden. That I sometimes lose myself in computer games I already know. But this made me realize that I do it way too much. When I am feeling down, I will go bury myself in a little fantasy world, inside my computer. But I survied without the 97,000 games. ; )
I also did discover that the world didn't end when my computer crashed. I was able to get online to say "hey" when I needed to. But yes, I could access my bank etc. without it. If I needed to. And that, though thing do change even when I don't want them to, I can adapt to most anything. I discovered that yes, I still loath change, but I can cope a lot better than I thought I could or gave myself credit for.
M
Now when I bought that computer, I loaded it up with every bit of memory that would fit, the biggest hard drive too. I did not want to have to replace it in a year or two. But the down side of that was, though it had been great for years and years, it is old. So I spend to last weeks installing the updates until I finally realized that I needed to move on. The other one I'd gotten working, witohut my programs of course. Those were all lost. But it was time. I loaded up every flash drive I had and got ready to bite the bullet.
I had my father's computer in the attic, and it had been on my mind to switch to it. It was already set up wireless and so was his laptop which I also had. I'd been lax about updating that too. Yes, there is a point to all this. When I did get the computer up and running nad the updates in from the two years it sat, I had to decided about all those files I had so carefully copied. When I though I'd lost my hard drive on the old one, I was in a panic over not having those thousands of files. Research, old pictures, e-mails, tons of stuff.
The conclusion I came to was that, there is a lot of stuff I had trhat I'd moved from computer to computer over the years that I'd deemed as essentail, but hadn't looked at or needed in forever. So this has allowed me to really look at them in light of what I really need to "load" myself down with again.
I also had to look at how much time I spend staring at the computer when I could be working or in the garden. That I sometimes lose myself in computer games I already know. But this made me realize that I do it way too much. When I am feeling down, I will go bury myself in a little fantasy world, inside my computer. But I survied without the 97,000 games. ; )
I also did discover that the world didn't end when my computer crashed. I was able to get online to say "hey" when I needed to. But yes, I could access my bank etc. without it. If I needed to. And that, though thing do change even when I don't want them to, I can adapt to most anything. I discovered that yes, I still loath change, but I can cope a lot better than I thought I could or gave myself credit for.
M
I like to periodically clean out old files and defrag my hard disk (throwback to the days of old when a 40 MB (NOT GB) drive was considered huge.) Were it that I could so easily do so with some of the files in my brain.
Your share has given me much to think about...thank you!
Yes! Thanks Hobbit! You have made me think too!
When I think of times when my PC has crashed and had to be reformatted and I lost everything... it hurt at first but then new things popped up and they replaced those lost gems.
I've thrown away a lot of files this past year... both physical and mental... and because of it I feel for the first time in my life free.
I have found out that the less I "own" mentally the freer I am and my own PC can just surf at a nice leisurely pace and enjoy the sites I see...
Dave