Sorry to hear that you were in a bad accident and have suffered so much. Have you sought all different treatments and gone for counseling? I have chronic back pain and I didn't think that I could do anything at first . After some time I realized that I wanted to start being more active in the community and started volunteering. That way I can help out when it is convenient for me. I hope you can find something that you can do that you enjoy. It makes a big difference.

Thank you Ana.

I am still in the process of getting diagnosed. I was the primary bread winner, and we are struggling to keep the house and truck since the accident, so no money for therapies.

The life had before the accident was full of fundraising and community volunteering. Because of the vertigo, headaches, labile emotional state, and confusion it's just not something I can do.

I used to thrive off of that.
I organized events at the local bar and at our house. One year we brought in just under ten grand in charity funds.

Everything I used to do and define myself by has to change.

If you don't mind me asking, what was your life like before the back pain?

Respectfully

I hope you can get a clear diagnosis soon. and find a doctor who can help you. I know what you mean by your identity being taken away. I had a very busy life and worked and was active with my kids. I did all the stuff around the house. and outdoor work also. Now I am limited because it doesn't take much to aggravate my back. I do what I can but my life is different now. Volunteering and helping others has helped me a lot. I try to find hobbies that I can do and get better at those things. I took up photography and am having fun with that. It has taken me a long time to adjust. Everyone is different and has to go through the process of grieving, in a sense. Take it one day at a time.