I fell off of my horse in January. It happens. Falls don't typically scare me and this one was slow and expected. I can't remember what happened next but after I realized I was going down my next thought was stand up. I don't remember the actual land. When I got up to run after my horse my lower leg had snapped when I put my right leg out to run It swung around like a bag full of rocks. The next hour consisted of a lot of drama.. Long story short it took a while to ft EMS to the field and during that time people repeatedly tried lifting the leg while pulling me into a car to get me to a hospital ASAP. Their intentions were coming from a good place.

I was ambulanced to the nearest trauma center for emergency surgery to fix my leg. My tibia was completely snapped and displaced. My fibula was also and my ankle was broken. One rod down the center of my tibia and 6 screw later I was put back together. 12 weeks non weight bearing another 12 until I was walking and done with physical therapy. My x Rays shows 100% healed.

5 months and 27 days after my horse fall.. I slipped in the mud and broke the fibula again and part of my tibia has splintered off of my rod.

Not only does this suck physically, but i can't sleep, I can't stop thinking about falling off my horse or slipping in the mud. I don't like walking because I'm afraid to fall. I set a goal for myself after the first break of getting back into the show ring. Now, I'm scared to walk outside. I'm scared to stand in the shower. I'm afraid to drive. My mind is constantly going to worst case scenario. I'm afraid of falling on my crutches and breaking something else. I get hot and sweaty with my heart beating uncontrollably when I watch people jump their horses.. I'm feel broken in every sense of the word.