I don't know what to say in this forum. It is easiest to say that I want a partner who is special. I don't want to be treated like a sex object nor have a woman who is content on being treated as such. That takes all the enjoyment out of sex for me. I want somebody that can make me laugh and I make her laugh. I want an inspirational woman. Attempting to be those things is obviously like being a hero, where the only person who does not see such positive things about self is the person him/herself. I don't see them about me. others have though and I was just being "ME". Thus I am mystified. But I understand that it is that person's view of me and that is enough for me. But sex, just with anyone is not that cool for me. I would want monogamy with somebody who, as a woman wants the same. Somebody I can trust with my life, considering the prevalence of AIDS and STDs. It is kind of like: one can have sex with anybody. But one can't trust ust anybody with their life. That is what it is like for me anyways. Why abstaining from sex with others is important until I find that right person. Yet that seems like an impossible deam. But any other way and sex gets boring pretty fast. I've got to start by abstaining from sex just because of the seemingly hopelessness of such a dream. I am no means religious or the like. Just one who wants to be with that special person.
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