A place to share your life without fear of judgment. Community Group
I want a place for friends to meet up and share what is going on in their lives, good or bad. Without judgement and hopefully a lot of laughter.
hello all,
I dont know if I am in the right "support group" if I am not I apologize. I am a woman with the average family and friends, I can honestly say I am truly blessed with the amount of people there for me, but when I try to talk to them, they don't understand, and it becomes frustrating to me. So I'm hoping to talk to anyone that is able to relate to me.. No matter how happy my life is, I always have these negative thoughts, and suicidal thoughts (I will never act on them, they are just that, thoughts), thoughts of self doubt, self critical, and no matter how hard I try I just cant seem to get rid of the thoughts. I can't afford a therapist and do not have insurance. I just want to talk to someone who maybe understands or can relate to me. thank you
-
It's bedtime but I heated up some coffee to take my pills with and made a fresh pot so I can have some as soon as I wake up tomorrow a.m. I've been on a roll for 2 days with cleaning and getting other stuff done. I bought a new cell phone about a week ago and I've been having some issues. I stopped at Verizon and a nice young man jumped in to help. As a result, I was able to get an iced...
-
tried any self help books. Some are helpful. Is there any low cost county or
city run therapy clinics near you? Non profit counseling agency, Pastoral
Counseling from a church? I went years ago and paid what I could afford.
I'm Jewish but she didn't mention religion so it was ok.
Sounds like there is more to you than you've said..
The reason I say this is basically anyone who is dealing with self doubt, negitive-ness, and many other things...have had something or someone who has had these things told to them as a younger person...
With myself, I've got sexual abuse in my past, I have physical abuse that taught me that I was worthless and my only purpose was to let them punch me till the bell for next class rung.. everyday, every class change... sometimes they were waiting for me at my locker...
when I was able to slip past them, I was so happy and gitty...
Adults who don't understand... all around me..
I've noticed the only folks who are mostly closer friends have a 'special' person in their family... those folks are the only ones who have the patience to 'deal with me'...
Yeah, I understand folks who want to or act like they want to help... but unless you've been through what ever the other person been through, it's almost worthless to talk to them...
Here, many of us really do understand, and have survived or are dealing with what ever it is...
An answer to your question I grew up in a chaotic household, lived in 19 different places by the age of 12, I can say I was never abused, but watched my siblings, mom and then stop mom be beaten like crazy.. I was always the "good" one.. But I always felt guilty watching my brother and sister get beat the way they did and not be able to help.
My biological Father also called us names.. all the time.. "whore" "n**ger lover" "sluts like our mother" and that was also before the age of 12.
I am a very self aware person, and I do know that has sooo much to do with why I think the way I do, etc.. And with alot of self help in the last 10 years, I have managed to live a pretty positive happy "normal" life.. but I have these thoughts out of nowhere and its non stop in my head.. After really researching my patterns, I believe I may have "S-OCD" (suicidal obbsession compulsive disorder). I know google is not a doctor, but when I read the definition of it, i felt like it was talking directly to me, like it was in my head.