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Good moanin my friends..  I'm journaling because seems like the only thing that works  well for me lately ....My DailyStrength is brought to you by Windows internet Explorer, provided by Yahoo...and lots of time my pages do not respond...guess they deaf or something.....So...Me I'm free to ride my bike..tinker in my yard and napp.. yepp snooze ...big time...........Well my administrative nurse she was able to get those Male harmal  patches for me.. Testosterone..hehehe see I can spell it.. course I got the patch rat in front of me lol..problem is do I really wanna use it.. see I be readin all the side effects.. most of em being kind of chit I already got happening.. and a few new ones.. like ya hair fallin out..or ya gums gettin tender ... gum sores... swellin of the tongue..face lips and mouth.. how ya swell up a mouth.. gee had a ffew  swollen lips in my time...heres some the reall scary stuff interrupted breathing while sleepin.. (NOT GOOD)...strange or bitter taste in mouth..change in size or shape of testicles;(wat da heck!)..breast growth or pain......stomach pain..painful or prolonged  erecti......geesh...urination problems.. (gosh wonder why)..yellowin of the skin or eyes... (what no glowin in the dark?)....Then ya get to the allergic reactions... yeah rite.. things like, hives...rashes..itching... difficutly breathing.. tightness of chest..more swellin of  face , lips. mouth. and tongue.......Okay... Russ's version of warnin..If this medicine kills ya.. please call ya doctor and report any changes in ya breathin and heart beat...leave a not for the corner..if I died with an errection please leave it alone it's the first one I've had in Years.... ........seriously... most the side effects I already experience from the  other meds I take.. I'm wondering if the gain is worth the risk....how do you decide what to do when everything always has some kind of side effect invovled...  well I'm gonna wait couple days before I start this here patch...I've almost died over the last few years from being overmedicated ... now I'm kinda wondering wher do ya draw the line... I aint gonna live forever.. but I'd like to enjoy what time I have ... with out all these side effects.. jeesh...  am I nutz or what.... Russ