Zoey would be turning one
a year ago today my day started off perfect and ended in a nightmare.
a year has past and today we celebrated our little Zoey. She should have turned one but instead we went to her grave, gave her flowers and wrote loving message on her birthday balloouns that we sent off to her. I was surprised to have a sence of peace through it all. I know I will cry tonight when the time of her birth comes and goes, I will be reminded of how fast it all went and of the horrible monents we went through that night and the weeks that fallowed.
I still wish things had turned out different. I wonder if I will ever get pregnant again and if so if I will just go through more pain but today I just remember my little girl, so perfect at 1lb6onces.
The day started out with rain and the sun made an unexpected apperence in the pm. I like to think that Zoey like her gifts so much that she pushed the clouds away to make this day a little brighter.
momy loves you Zoey, keep watching over us.
a year has past and today we celebrated our little Zoey. She should have turned one but instead we went to her grave, gave her flowers and wrote loving message on her birthday balloouns that we sent off to her. I was surprised to have a sence of peace through it all. I know I will cry tonight when the time of her birth comes and goes, I will be reminded of how fast it all went and of the horrible monents we went through that night and the weeks that fallowed.
I still wish things had turned out different. I wonder if I will ever get pregnant again and if so if I will just go through more pain but today I just remember my little girl, so perfect at 1lb6onces.
The day started out with rain and the sun made an unexpected apperence in the pm. I like to think that Zoey like her gifts so much that she pushed the clouds away to make this day a little brighter.
momy loves you Zoey, keep watching over us.
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Wow I can\'t believe it has been one year. Your day definitely had me teared up because I can\'t imagine the strength it took to get out of bed today. You are an amazing and strong mama. Wish I could l be there to give you a big hug and celebrate your beautiful daughter with you.
Roxy I am thinking of you and Zoey today.
Love you Roxy. I think of you and your Zoey often. She is proud of her strong momma. I am sure of that. xoxo
I think of you and little Zoey often. Happy Birthday little one. XOXO
Praying for you!!!
Sending lots of love to you and your family .. Zoey is never far from my thoughts and my heart! Big hugs!! XO
Happy birthday sweet little Zoey. I think of you and Zoey often and pray for you.
Happy birthday Zoey - keep watching over your family xoxoxo
Happy birthday Zoey. I feel the same way about my Ava and Phoenix i lost in late January. We lost them after five losses. It was heartbreaking and I still love every single one of my babies. I still love the beautiful baby girl and boy I recently lost and we like to include them in our lives lighting memory candles and sending up balloons into the sky. It\'s so hard to be an angel mommy. Especially when I thought things would work out and they didn\'t becuuse of a placenta issue that wasn\'t even supposed to be likely cause them to die after finally getting that far. It hurts for me personally a lot. My heart goes out to you and your angel baby.