Your Memorial
Your memorial this past Saturday was what I expected. The rain held out, the flowers were beautiful, and attended by eighteen of our family and good friends.
The people I least expected to speak gave a wonderful testimony of how your life affected them. They didn't hesitate to point out the love and devotion you had for me, or the wonderful, rare qualities you possessed that are so hard to find in someone today. Everyone agreed that you were truly a special man. They didn't have to tell me that, for I know. I already knew and realized all those wonderful traits that I fell in love with.
I didn't have to think that I wish you could hear, for you did hear. I didn't have to wish you were there, for you were there. I especially smiled when that brief ray of sunshine broke through the cloudy skies. You are always here, right by my side, just like the inscription on my necklace and forever emblazed on our headstone.
This morning I woke up really missing you and loving you in a depth I have never felt before. There is no one on the face of this earth that can come close to what I lost in you. Grief has a mind of its own. It controls me, I don't control it. Don't worry. I can carry the sadness, the yearning, the tears, the deep love, laughter and enjoyment every day of my life. It is becoming part of my every day that I am getting used to.
As you already know, my new project is researching travel groups for women. We talked about so many wonderful places we wanted to visit, and also return to those places that we favored above all others. I plan to continue with those travel plans, see and do as much as I can until I take my last breath on this earth and you come back to get me, smiling, crying, and running as fast as those tall legs can carry you, with arms outstretched to scoop me up and hug me until you just can't hug me anymore.
If I can survive this first year without you, I can manage the rest until God calls me to my final resting place.
Forever in my heart, forever in my mind, and forever in my soul.
Love from your devoted wife - Debbie
The people I least expected to speak gave a wonderful testimony of how your life affected them. They didn't hesitate to point out the love and devotion you had for me, or the wonderful, rare qualities you possessed that are so hard to find in someone today. Everyone agreed that you were truly a special man. They didn't have to tell me that, for I know. I already knew and realized all those wonderful traits that I fell in love with.
I didn't have to think that I wish you could hear, for you did hear. I didn't have to wish you were there, for you were there. I especially smiled when that brief ray of sunshine broke through the cloudy skies. You are always here, right by my side, just like the inscription on my necklace and forever emblazed on our headstone.
This morning I woke up really missing you and loving you in a depth I have never felt before. There is no one on the face of this earth that can come close to what I lost in you. Grief has a mind of its own. It controls me, I don't control it. Don't worry. I can carry the sadness, the yearning, the tears, the deep love, laughter and enjoyment every day of my life. It is becoming part of my every day that I am getting used to.
As you already know, my new project is researching travel groups for women. We talked about so many wonderful places we wanted to visit, and also return to those places that we favored above all others. I plan to continue with those travel plans, see and do as much as I can until I take my last breath on this earth and you come back to get me, smiling, crying, and running as fast as those tall legs can carry you, with arms outstretched to scoop me up and hug me until you just can't hug me anymore.
If I can survive this first year without you, I can manage the rest until God calls me to my final resting place.
Forever in my heart, forever in my mind, and forever in my soul.
Love from your devoted wife - Debbie
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