Young man that didn't make it.
Didn't want to put this on the main board, this is a letter from a 18 year old that went into detox and didn't stay. This is the last communication he had to the world before he took his life.
Fuck You Alcohol: "I can’t get enough of you, but I often take too much When my life goes to shit you’re the one that I trust Sometimes I love you, other times it’s just lust You fix it all but make it worse, leave you I must It’s not gonna be easy, I think I’m addicted to you At a time like this it seems like I’m livin through you I can’t stay away, there’s often times I give in to you There’s been a million signs that I was oblivious to You make me happy, sad, ungrateful and angry too But it’s my own damn fault, I’m truly not blamin you But you’re a bitch, I’m done playin the game with you We have a chemistry, been through a lot of pain with you But I’ve been using you, and now I’m always impaired It’s gotten to the point that I don’t even wanna share I can’t fucking get enough, and that’s why I’m scared Last night you drew the last straw, now I’m aware So many times I woke up in the morning confused Both parties in our relationship are being abused I have a problem, I don’t just use you to be amused You ease the pain, but so much you made me lose I take these situations and in my head they’re funny But they’re fucked up, like a storm when it’s sunny You’re so sweet but bitter, like green tea and honey My wallet is empty, you take all my fucking money We’ve been riding this coaster since I was fourteen When it rains it pours, and right now it’s storming No matter how much I hate you, you still adore me I don’t deserve this, how the fuck did you score me? You’re fuckin it all up, making me feel so useless I can’t take it anymore, so no longer can I do this Not for you but for me, to myself I must prove this Fuck you alcohol, I’m sick and tired of the excuses." -Me
I hate this disease--Period!
Fuck You Alcohol: "I can’t get enough of you, but I often take too much When my life goes to shit you’re the one that I trust Sometimes I love you, other times it’s just lust You fix it all but make it worse, leave you I must It’s not gonna be easy, I think I’m addicted to you At a time like this it seems like I’m livin through you I can’t stay away, there’s often times I give in to you There’s been a million signs that I was oblivious to You make me happy, sad, ungrateful and angry too But it’s my own damn fault, I’m truly not blamin you But you’re a bitch, I’m done playin the game with you We have a chemistry, been through a lot of pain with you But I’ve been using you, and now I’m always impaired It’s gotten to the point that I don’t even wanna share I can’t fucking get enough, and that’s why I’m scared Last night you drew the last straw, now I’m aware So many times I woke up in the morning confused Both parties in our relationship are being abused I have a problem, I don’t just use you to be amused You ease the pain, but so much you made me lose I take these situations and in my head they’re funny But they’re fucked up, like a storm when it’s sunny You’re so sweet but bitter, like green tea and honey My wallet is empty, you take all my fucking money We’ve been riding this coaster since I was fourteen When it rains it pours, and right now it’s storming No matter how much I hate you, you still adore me I don’t deserve this, how the fuck did you score me? You’re fuckin it all up, making me feel so useless I can’t take it anymore, so no longer can I do this Not for you but for me, to myself I must prove this Fuck you alcohol, I’m sick and tired of the excuses." -Me
I hate this disease--Period!
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Too bad, and so very sad!!!! Feel bad for his family. Feel bad for him before his dimise. Be well, Friend. Thanks for sharing. The devil\'s brew strikes again. Sad. Sad. Sad :(
Clear case of reality not being able to be handled. I see it and hear it time and time again. I recently had a friend commit suicide. No one new he even had any issue he hid it all very well. The times he must of called out for help and was never heard. For all the fallen angels that were never heard, my heart and prayers goes out to you.
Thanks for sharing gjm
Thank you for sharing...this was something that I think I needed to read.
:((( The reality. Thank you for sharing that, G. Breaks my heart.
Sucks. I hate alcohol and drugs and how it effs up our heads. Hope he found a better place. Thanks for sharing g.
Wow powerful in a way