Young, afraid and feeling alone

Wow. I thought I was okay until it was time to be alone. And I know that people can still live long healthy lives with Hiv but I'm only 23 I wish I didn't have to worry about it. I can't tell my family, I'm the youngest of 4 kids and I'm the one who's got a chronic illness, I still have dreams of cimppeteling my law degree and falling inlove but I've got this secret and I honestly don't know if life gets better I've only been dealing with this for 3 weeks . Anyone who's known longer? How do you adjust? My friends are the only people who know but they have no idea what it feels like. I just want to talk to someone who's been in my shoes because I know it gets betterĀ