You Will Never Understand

You think you understand as you try to place blames on my actions and feelings, but you will never understand what I am going through. You will never understand the thoughts that go through my mind. You will never understand how bad I want to hurt myself. You will never understand how bad I've wanted to kill myself. You will never understand how many times I want to cry in a day. You will never understand how bad I want to disappear. You will never understand how bad I want to run away. You will never understand how bad I just want to forget it all, but I can't and for you to try to judge me will be the biggest thing that I will never understand.