You're the closest to home

busting them out again, two in less than 24 hours. guess theres a lot on my mind
 
 
i dont want you backbut my hearts stuck in the pastyoure the closest thing i ever had to homeits hard for me to let people ininto this rock solid wall where ive beenhiding behindtoo scared to pass the linetoo scared to enter this world we live ini wanna start but i dont know where to begini thought youd be here through thick and through thini can move on but im held backbut its not motivation that i lackits my inability to get back on trackproblems, more problemsjump on top of the falling stacksometimes my heart feels like its blackim encaved in this darknesswhat did i do to start thisbetter yetwhat did i do to end itim sorry im sorrycome back dont leave meyou were all i had now theres no one to see mesee past the bullshit the hurt and the painstand by my side through the storms and the raini know it wasnt meant to be to work outso what is all this bullshit really abouti just need your hugyour touch was my drugyou calmed me when i was at  my worstnow youre gone and i feel gone tooyou left me with a never ending thurstits been over a year now but i still feel the hurti know im not your responsibilityyou made that clear when you up and left mebut sometimes i wish you would have kept mebut then i remember the badand how i was so damn sadyou left before you were gonei knew it wouldnt work all alongi know deep down this isnt all about youbut you were the only one who i let throughim scared im scaredto move on from youi know theres someone betterbut i dont know whoi dont want you backbut my hearts stuck in the pastyoure the closest thing i ever had to home