You haven't Seen The Last Of Me - Cher
The song itself is inspiring and one of my favourites, yet here I sit listening to it on repeat, crying by myself at 3:46am.I can't keep this up for much longer. I need help... but I don't know where to look. I feel so alone and so different. I'm tired of the pain... the symptoms and the heart-ache both.
I think it's effecting my studies... but it's not like I can get any lee-way. I could get counselling... but I'd have to start all over again, and I don't think I can keep telling my sob-story over and over. It just hurts too much. It's too hard.
Self-harm keeps coming into my head... but I know I can't. For so many reasons.
I don't know what to do... I just need to be held while I cry, I need to hit things, I need to tear stuff apart and feed my heart to the wolves... then blow up he wolves. (bit of humour there to lighten the mood... :/)I guess that's all I have to say for now... I love you all, keep smiling. x
I think it's effecting my studies... but it's not like I can get any lee-way. I could get counselling... but I'd have to start all over again, and I don't think I can keep telling my sob-story over and over. It just hurts too much. It's too hard.
Self-harm keeps coming into my head... but I know I can't. For so many reasons.
I don't know what to do... I just need to be held while I cry, I need to hit things, I need to tear stuff apart and feed my heart to the wolves... then blow up he wolves. (bit of humour there to lighten the mood... :/)I guess that's all I have to say for now... I love you all, keep smiling. x
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