you don't just heal overnight.

I am still hurting, bad,  today is the 5 year anniversary of losing my mom. It seemed to be the worst thing to happen to me until this past year. I love her and miss her, but she was older and we all must die eventually. Hard as it is for those we leave behind. But sisters, brothers,  and nieces all younger than me, it's toooooooooooo much. And well meaning people, don't always help. There's stages of grief I've read about and I think I was at about 4 or 5 with my sister when my brother died, so where an I now stage 1 and 2 for my brother and stage 4 or 5 for my sister. People say get a job, get a hobby, etc. etc. And all I want to do is scream and cry. I'm angry and hurt and don't want to wake up every morning , but I still do. LIFE SUCKS RIGHT NOW!