I just received an e-mail from the drug counselor who I thought agreed to do my presentation. I really was a bit surprised that she would do it - since it wasn't her material but I wasn't going to press it. Anyway, in so many words, she said she would be a part of it but she wasn't going to do my presentation. Honestly, I truly understand but now.....now it looks like I'm going to have to do it. My husband said that if I didn't feel comfortable presenting it then he would be happy to. I told him that, perhaps, we can do it together. I hate public speaking - especially about something so emotional and close to home. And the fact that we know many of these people. It would be easier if it were at a school where we didn't know anyone but ......I'll get over it! The Principal actually thought I was going to present it anyway so I guess this is meant to be. Yikes! I'm getting nervous already! The last two years I've been running the Suicide Prevention/Education booth at the 4th of July annual carnival our town has every year. Since T will not be attending the high school I decided I'm finished. I'm onto something else. I wish I would have pushed to find someone to take over the reins but the school has so many activities going on - to take on another would be too much, I guess. Last night my husband and I went up to the carnival and ran into a lot of people we knew. Yes - there is a gazebo at this event, too, with various bands that play. We always feel like we're on a movie the way the carnival is set up. It seems so surreal. Anyway, our family doctor (who is also the president of the school board) and told my husband he heard that he was going to run for school board! The other night a friend of my husband's and another person (who is on the school board) asked my husband if he was interested. He never answered them but it seems like they got the impression that he would do it. I don't know about this. He is always taking on way too much. In fact, he was awarded "Citizen of the Year" this year and that's because he's so involved. I don't think it's a good idea because I know how these things go. Sure - two meetings a month....but I know that that means there will be meetings in-between. And then all of the politics and all the stuff that comes with that. We don't need more drama in our lives!!