Yet Another Update...

"Life only demands from you the strength you possess. Only one feat is possible — not to have run away."– Dag Hammarskjold Last week I found myself in a terrible fog. Luckily it didn’t take long for me to get out of it but in the process I think I lost a lot of my drive in school. I am trying to get back into the swing of things but alas I think something is not clicking in my mind. I got an 84% on my test and the reason why that happened was because of those darn true/false questions. I really thought I conquered them but I am back to over analyzing again. Such a disappointment!  Oh, well next test I will certainly do better. My over all average in school is 96% and hopefully climbing if I can get it together, however, no pressure. Not sure if I mentioned it but I got my new washer and dryer! With that came a huge over haul on my laundry room. I reorganized it, got new curtains and hung up a few sunshiny laundry themed plaques.  Walking into my laundry room isn’t such a downer anymore. I actually enjoy going in there now- even Husband commented how it feels different. Husband is a teacher so he is off school in the summers. It is very nice, however, it seems with all the time we spend together we usually get into several fights over the summer. This summer, however, is a different story. He is learning how to slow down and relax and I am learning how to get up and go with him when need be. I have been scoping out museums and aquariums as well as parks, zoos, and gardens we can go to. The only thing keeping me back is my anxiety. The moment I step out of my comfort zone that anxiety sores. Well, part of exposure therapy is to step out so this week I am deciding where I wish to go. I have yet to tell husband this because he doesn’t realize it but he adds unwanted pressure I don’t need. Boy will he be surprised! I am still mowing and bike riding though Husband wants me to go further with the bike riding. I know my limits and I know when I can go. During the days it’s just too hot to ride and I refuse which limits Husband but he understands. So the evenings we tend to ride for about 30-45mins. I quite enjoy it but do wish I could go further but I know my limits. Each day I grow stronger and stronger. Soon will be the big BBQ we put on for Husbands students. I am actually looking forward to it. No panic and no nervousness. It will go well as it always does and if I need a time out I can just go to my bedroom or to the office for a breather. It will be great exposure therapy. All I know is I have to get to together and up my game as I know Husband plans to contract my business out for a fund raiser which will take place 2 hours away from home for a full day. Not a big deal for some but for me that’s huge. So I need to really get comfortable in places I have never been…which starts this week. :)I hope everyone is well!  ~Bright Blessings~Rea