yet another row

another awful night last night,husband came to drop some money off for our daughter.and when i answerd the door he just looked through me and when i asked what his problem was he just laughed at me.that made me so angry we ended up having another row.im so angry at myself as i was getting stronger and now i feel ive gone back.it hurts to look at him as i still dolove him and know hes not mine anymore hes hers now.when will i start to not care about them?its killing me.xx