Yes I\'m still alive!

I have not been on this site in months. Well, I've signed on and read a few posts, but I have not messaged, hugged, posted, or interacted.  I have received messages and hugs and I do apologize for not respnding, it just wasn't in my heart at the time, I guess that's the most honest answer I can give. I have been spending most of my time outside of work reading the bible, trying to understand the parts I don't understand, and also as much time as I can with my kids.  We are revising our youth ministry at church, and I have been working on that as well, with the hopes that one day my kids will be more inspired. I can see God working on their hearts, and hope that they will be able to see Him as I do.   I am still working on the divorce, my lawyer stopped because I owed him money.  I did pay him and now we are proceeding, and I hope to get this completed. The stbx still does not have a job and seems content to let me pay everything, even though she now says she has gone through all the money she had (which was quite a large sum) and is now living off credit cards.  I hope that 2008 is the last joint tax return we ever have to do and that I can proceed in 09 without her as such a burden. The holidays are a bit of a drag. Fortunately my friends from church have been kind to me, so I was able to spend Thanksgiving with one large family, it was mch better than staying home alone, that I am thankful for.   Last summer I was on this site every day, even during work. That was bad, as I did let work slip and that is not a good thing for me, it would be devastating to lose the job.  So this is my way of reaching out a bit, to see if any of my DS friends are still around, and to talk a bit.   Here's to you all. Cheers!