Yes, I have a goal
Yes, I have a goal and did feel quite good about setting one here. I have thought for a week to drop a note about this. I have something to share in relation to my goal of repairing relationships. I have planned to contact sister #2 by phone because last time we talked back in October she asked me to call her and keep in touch. We have been so very close all our lives but especially the last 14 years, she became my very best friend after my close, forever friend of 17 years walked out of my life and took her friendship away. That is another story for a later date. She is my music buddy and scrabble partner, I loved staying at her home just past Denali in Alaska. We would bust out the guitars and sing all day, then bust out the Scrabble and play till 3 in the morning, then get up with the kids put the coffee on and start on the Scrabble again while Od'ing on coffee with yummy creamer. Well, this sister came to visit the family in Arizona last February and I was thrilled to see her but only disappointed that I wouldn't be able to get up and go do things with her. She is a bit harsh on me about my health problems but better than the rest of them. She states my doctor is misdiagnosing me and I couldn't have ALL these different conditions/syndromes/diseases. I got angry with her once when she was here because she downplayed my suffering and that all of us have pain and blah, blah, blah. I told her clearly she does not understand and I'm done talking about it. So, when we talked on the phone last she uses this tough love kind of support and says, WELL WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HELP YOURSELF?? with a firm, stern voice. I said, 'listen, I have tons of pain and the sweats right now, I gotta go'. My goal was to call her though there isn't any real repair needed in our relationship like with the other 2 sisters. I was pissed about her insensitive, tough love approach with me. I'm thinking that when I call her of telling her I have no interest in discussing my pain issues. A changed relationship is what we have because I got sick, I suffer, I cannot work and have almost no energy. Why would family react this way to those of us in conditions of severe, chronic pain and out of this world fatigue? I hope for some ideas, suggestions and any feedback here. Thanks, Sherry
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