Yelling.

My anxiety and ptsd comes from years of abuse from multiple people. This means that a lot of different things trigger me, including loud voices. I thought I'd gotten this mostly under control but lately living in the dorms is a nightmare. a lot of the girls have been getting in screaming matches and they really don't seem to care about how they affect those living near them. most people are probably just annoyed, and then there are those of us who have anxiety that feel wildly uncomfortable. i live in the regular dorms this year in hopes that i could handle it. i cant, and next year i'll be in a much calmer environment, and i'm thankful for that.
 
today i feel really uneasy. im positive that my "best friend" is sick of me. i dont blame her. i'm sick of me too. 
i'm still feeling suicidal.