YAY!! FINALLY SNUCK BACK ON!!!
Oh my god!! Oh my freaking god!! I have missed you all so much. I'm not sure exactly where to start...maybe with how I've been doing, just so you guys don't worry as much?? Well, the good newas is, recovery has been going GREAT! Now that's not to say my life is rainbows and butterflies, but things have gotten a lot easier, despite all the challenges that came my way sophomore year with me not getting into plays and singing groups. But I had a sort of a-ha moment after my parents found me cutting, and they said, "this is it, you have to leave and go into treatment. Pack your bags." And even though I've been wanting to go into residential forever, I just suddenly thought, "Wait...this would put my life on hold. And I'm not even trying with the resources I have, I'm just letting myself get worse and worse on purpose because I want to go away." And I just decided right then and there that I didn't want to waste anymore of my time on ED and self injuring. Obviously, that doesn't mean I've made a complete 180, there are still mannnnny things to work on. But I've stopped purging, and my mindset has changed dramatically, which I think is most important. I realllly want recovery. Now much more important, you guys. This is gonna sound really weird, but I pray for each and every one of you every night, and cry most of the time too. How is Lauren's foot doing? How is Jess feeling with her pain? How is school going for Brit? It hurts beyond belief to be away from you guys. I miss you with all my heart, but the best part is, in abut two weeks or so my computer privilidges will start to come back because of my progress. I can't wait to become an active member of DS again. And I hope I won't be forgotten because I think of you all so much. Please leave updates on how you all are doing because I don't have time to comment on everyone's journal entries before my parents come back. I love you all so, so, so much. Megs
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Oh, yay Megan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I\'m so effing proud of you my heart just might burst out of my chest. *hugs forever* I can\'t wait for you to be back on here. I\'m doing pretty shitty personally, ED has his teeth in and does not want to let go. Good news though, 7 days of no purging!!!!! Love ya!
:) this is the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you just made me smile! im so so so so proud of you!!! keep it up!! cant wait till ur allowed back on here!
Wow! I\'m so happy you are starting to really kick ed\'s behind. I think about you everyday and I check your page whenever I\'m on to see if you have journaled. You really made me smile when i read that you wonder how my foot is doing. I\'m in the walking boot now, because the cast was causing me too much anxiety. So I am doing better with that because I can take it off. My doctor is now thinking my problem might be steming from the spine, so I have to see the neurologist again and get another nerve study. But as of now surgery is being ruled out, so that\'s a good thing. Are your parents letting you recieve mail?
Good for you, you were not on my friends list but jess is, and she was worried about you.
I\'m so proud of u, i sent u the new DVD and it will arrive soon.i will never forget u hun I love u so much.Maybe i should do what u r doing insteaD OF WASTING MY TIME ON ed AND si I SHOULD just stop but i know i can\'t change over night, but i\'m so proud of u lov. just to let u know i may b IP i dont know my therpist is comming over, if i do go plz dont forget me, i love u babe keep up the good work :)
Dear you could never be forgotten!! We love YOU for your kind heart and your resiliant and vibrant spirit! I am so impressed and proud of you and I can\'t wait until you can come back on here so we can support you as best we can! you are such a dear and I am so glad to hear from you!!! Please know that we are here to love you no matter how well or how badly things are going. I pray for you that the positive changes you are making will help you feel more and more energized and alive and you will start to see the light that shines from you!!! Take care dear!
Like the others, I HAVE NOT FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU!! I think of you all of the time, and often wonder how you\'re doing. It makes me so happy to hear that things are starting to move forward. I knew they would. :) And don\'t you worry about not being on here that much anymore. We all understand that you are going through some rough stuff right now. Don\'t feel bad or guilty!! I love YOU!! xo
My pain has been a lot better, the injections are helping, but I may be pregnant! OMG I know...but it\'s ok...i\'ll deal with it if I am..I have been thinking about you a lot and miss you.,.I\'ll write you soon.
xxoo
4 get u? NEVA!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I LOVE YOU! I am so super proud of you! You are awesome!
YAY! I\'m at a loss for words and all I can come up with is, \"yay.\" lol. I\'m beyond happy for you. Keep up that positive attitude and you will make it! I know you will! Can\'t wait for you to be back on DS!
Hey. That\'s GREAT, babes! I was wonderingh where you had gone and what you were up to! Keep up the good work!
Yay you\'re back!!!