YAY!! FINALLY SNUCK BACK ON!!!

Oh my god!! Oh my freaking god!! I have missed you all so much. I'm not sure exactly where to start...maybe with how I've been doing, just so you guys don't worry as much?? Well, the good newas is, recovery has been going GREAT! Now that's not to say my life is rainbows and butterflies, but things have gotten a lot easier, despite all the challenges that came my way sophomore year with me not getting into plays and singing groups. But I had a sort of a-ha moment after my parents found me cutting, and they said, "this is it, you have to leave and go into treatment. Pack your bags." And even though I've been wanting to go into residential forever, I just suddenly thought, "Wait...this would put my life on hold. And I'm not even trying with the resources I have, I'm just letting myself get worse and worse on purpose because I want to go away." And I just decided right then and there that I didn't want to waste anymore of my time on ED and self injuring. Obviously, that doesn't mean I've made a complete 180, there are still mannnnny things to work on. But I've stopped purging, and my mindset has changed dramatically, which I think is most important. I realllly want recovery.       Now much more important, you guys. This is gonna sound really weird, but I pray for each and every one of you every night, and cry most of the time too. How is Lauren's foot doing? How is Jess feeling with her pain? How is school going for Brit? It hurts beyond belief to be away from you guys. I miss you with all my heart, but the best part is, in abut two weeks or so my computer privilidges will start to come back because of my progress. I can't wait to become an active member of DS again. And I hope I won't be forgotten because I think of you all so much. Please leave updates on how you all are doing because I don't have time to comment on everyone's journal entries before my parents come back.  I love you all so, so, so much. Megs