yay Dh will be home in a few hours from Germany!

Im looking forward to spending mothers day with my to boys! Im positive DH got my some sunglasses i have been wanting. I tol dhim not go get them because we have lots of expenses coming up in the next 60 days. Tires for my truck. Both of our cars 100k maintenance. Trip to GA and trip to cali. We are going to Melting pot with some friends for dinner and im happy with that. But im sure he got them. Im am going to really really try working on us. Its so hard. When he is gone i can think and reconize that im not oerfect and we are a team and know what i can do to improve our marriage. Then he gets home and bang in about 2 seconds pisses me off.  For example when i ask him to take the trash out he never does it. EVER not when i ask him. He will say after dinner or in the morning and then 9 times out of 10 will forget. So ill be cooking with a trash can over flowing. It pisses me of fto no end. Just takeout the trash can. So of course right before his trip i ask him at 5pm while im cooking dinne rto take it out he doesnt. Then 5 hours later gets around to it after im still bitching. Then he asks me to do something and i falt out say no. I was like you never do anything I ask you to do when I ask you to do it. It would make my life easier if you took it out when i asked you to so im not going to do anything to make your life easier. Please keep in mind we have a 17 month old obbsesed with teh trash so if its over flowing he wants to be digging in it. We keep a lid on it to deture from that but you cant keep a lid on it if its over flowing. I think he got the point because after i said it like that he left me alone. I wrote him a email while he was gone asking for help. I asked him 2 weeks ago to take a box out of our room  to the garage or throw it away. All he did was leave it on teh stairs landing. Same thing with a lamp that is sitting on the banister in the upstairs hall. Im like you see these things and you just walk right by them. I tol dhim i need help. I told him im so tired of having t oask you to do things an dyou not doing them when i ask an donly after i bitch do you do them. Or lord forbid he actually do something i never hear the end of it. I tol dhim with him being gone all teh time and me being a single mom 80% of the time now with another on the way I need more from him. That means i dont have to tell you to put your video game away and clean the kitchen. He says he will do stuff tthen doesnt do it till hours later. I dont know about you but i cant relax if my kitchen is messy. And he wont clean if after we eat but he wont let me clean up either, he just leaves it in there for hours. Then stuff is stuck on it so when it gets washed in the dishwasher it wont come off and i hav eto clean it again. I have stressed this with him so much. Im like you dont get points for cleaning  the kitchen when a) im misserable for 5 hours because  the kitchen isnt cleaned and i cant relax after cooking a meal. b)it leads to me doing it anyways only later and more work. He has began telling me hey can you do this or that and im like no. If you want it doen do it your self. he also needs my help with everything!!! I do everything all week while he is in other countries an he cant do one thing by himself. I fix and feed ian 3 meals a day plus snack all by myself. Yet he cant fix Ian one with out my help. Oh and dont you dare ask him to do something if he is already working on a project. even if it makes since. Like he is on his way to the garage, dont ask him to take something else down.
We have not dtd because after spending all day bickering who in there right mind wants to? i also tol dhim that. I was like maybe if my house was picked up with out me having to get nasty or just picked up without me asking. I shouldnt have to ask for help.  Maybe if i got a food rub without begging for it. I am always doing thoughful things for him. Always.  And because im thinking of it. He was playing his ps3 the other day while i was sweeping the floor and asked if i could do some laundry i looked at him and was like up hell no. You can turn your game off if you need some done that bad. Well he didnt urn his game off and he didnt get his laundry done. I have just done the whole houses laundry and am giving him his won basket. He can do his own stuff and i will do mine and ians. sounds far to me. Im just so tired of being taken for granted. I have sacrificed so much yet he act like i have is so easy. I could careless if millions of other moms would love the chance to be a SAHM. Im not one of them  i gave up my career so he could follow his. Dont act like you did me any favors.
I love to coupon. SO i spend alot of time and effort getting my family the best deal. I on average save around 60%-70%. I am not crazy like in those shows. I have no garage full of stockpiles. But when there is a good deal i stock up. You would think that instead of bitching about haveing to much bodywash,deoterant, shaving cream razors ect he would be thankfull. but no. I am talking i get those things for free or almost free. Its not like im saving .50 on a $4 item.  typically if it cost more than .50 i wont get it. Oh we were just at target and he wanted cerial. I said not right now i have lost of coupons at home and this store doesnt have them on sale. Well i went to the store today and got 10 boxs of cerial all for either free or under $1 each. I probably spent about $5 on all 10 total. Do you think he will be happy. No he will bitch. I got what he wanted. Luck charms, froot loops, trix ect. Well im in the 1st trimester so if history repeats itself i wont be cooking much so cerial will be a staple dinner for him. I just wish he apreicciated me. I mean i got 2 weeks worth of food today for under 50 bucks. an i got 4 things of beef. i got $50 worth of those stick on heating pads for free! and know what he said. You didnt spend anything on these did you. Not good job way to go. I said i would get them for free and it was like he wanted to second guess me. he hasnt cleaned the bathroom and i cant. It becomes a windowless death trap when you clean in there and with me being pregnant i cant. We will see if it gets done.
I would also like to sleep in with out begging for it. He has never let me sleep in one morning without me asking. he gets plenty of sleep when he travles. but i have to ask. Im just tired of it all. I need help and im tired of fighting for it.