y couldn't that have been me? :(

So tonight as I lay in bed with the man in my life ,I can't help but to wish it was u my teddy bear,  that's what I used to call you. My 2 year old daughter curled up in the middle of the bed, I look at her and think u could've been her father, we could be together, every time I see a picture of us together my heart aches, and when I see pictures of you with your new and 3rd wife my heart breaks and tears fall, Damn I loved you ,so much I would've moved across country, the world, let everything fall apart just to be with you, you always said you felt the same about me, should've known better , I feel like an abandoned animal, that u once held tight ,hugged kissed promised to love forever and then just thrown away left by the side of the road like trash.  It's true money and beauty make the world go round, those of us who are poor and ugly don't get love in return, I understand.  I know your happy and that makes me smile, but didn't I make u happy?  Y don't I ever have feelings
Y is it okay for me to be lonely?  Y couldn't I have your heart to love and your hand to hold ? What I'd give to be her for 1 day to kiss u make love share a meal have amazing conversation and listen to music dance ,these things will only happen in fantasy I know, feeling really sad about you, about what used to be us , I'm not perfect but the love I had for u was ...