Wyatts birthday
As tomorrow is Wyatts 1yr quickly approches on me. I found myself at work today not able to focus and crying alot . We havent even gotten to his actual Birthday/deathday and Im already a mess. I didnt think it would affect me this hard. Its just I should be celebrating with him and blowing out candles and opening presents and instead we are going to a cemetery and letting balloons go in to the sky and taking flowers to his grave. Not the birthday I once imagined. I think thats why I just cant quit crying. Also the fact that I dont know what will happen with this new little guy and Im a nervous wreck. I took the day off from work and Im so glad I did because if I was so emotional today I cant emagine what tomorrow will bring. I was however surprised by the fact that some people at work remembered and one close friend even cried with me today. You know you just cant find good people like that all the time. Well girls I need some extra strength tomorrow to help me get through the sad day and not totally loose it in front of my little girl. I love you Wyatt and I know God has a plan for you or he wouldnt have taken you from us. Have a good birthday baby and have fun playing with the angels. Love Mommy
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Holding you close to my heart tomorrow. I pray that it is as peaceful as possible. I know it\'s hard with the new pregnancy and Wyatt\'s birthday also. I hope Wyatt showers you with angel kisses. Happy 1st birthday, Wyatt. Have fun with all the other perfect little angels. Hugs, Cynthia
I\'m there with you in spirit. I had a terrible day today as well... and Morgan\'s birthday isn\'t for another 20 days. The pain came back so fierce today. I hadn\'t felt like this in months. Tomorrow will likely be really hard but I hope in the coming days you can find some peace. Hugs, Denise
Sending you and Wyatt all my love, and extra peace and comfort for you. It isn\'t going to be an easy day, but try and think of it as the day you first came face to face with your amazing little boy. It is still such a sad day, though, and I am so very sorry for you and your family. Also, for me, the days leading up to her birthday are always harder than the actual day itself. Please know that I am here anytime you need to talk. I was pregnant with Ben on Madeline\'s first birthday, so I understand all these emotions that are flooding you today. Take care of yourself and know that you are not alone. peace.
Sending you lots of hugs on this hard and terrible day. Don\'t worry about crying and breaking down in front of your girl. I know it won\'t be easy to hold it. That\'s so nice that someone at work remembered- sometimes I wonder even if my family remembers. Liam\'s is next week (the 18th), and I have noticed that I am getting very emotional, and I am so with you regarding the new little guy in our bellies. So scary, so unfair.
Tight hugs,
Biliana
Thank you all for keeping me sane through this rough day. I dont know what I would do with out you all. I cried so much in the morning until I told myself that I just had to keep busy and thats what I did, until my DH came home and we headed to the cemetery. It was nice we sang happy birthday and sent balloons soaring to heaven with a card that our little girl made for her brother.
Sounds like you made it the best day that you could make it but I so wish he was here and that you were having the one year old celebration like you should be having
I hope you found peace on Wyatt\'s birthday.