Wowzerz

Last night was one of those HORRIBLE sleeping nights and although I anticipated struggling tonight, it didn't make it any less terrible.  Sometimes when I'm so tired I wake up just so grumpy and even though I really don't, I sometimes feel like killing someone or just yelling at people!  I honestly sound psychotic.  If I ever made a really stupid choice or got in a car accident or something terrible, it would probably definitely be on a morning of which I slept like crap the night before.  I've never been a morning person.  Even before any of my major sleep troubles began, I would feel grumpy and overall just not function very well for the first little bit of the morning.  When I don't sleep good, mornings are even worse.  My insomnia is so bad that I feel like I have no control over my thoughts during my most tired times.  If I have even a little energy/am not exhausted then I can at least kind of filter my thoughts but I literally feel psychotic during certain periods and especially HATE mornings.  It makes me feel awful that I am so angry with the world(or maybe just with the way I feel) that it makes me really feel like killing people in the morning for no particular reason.  Luckily I didn't do anything stupid or get in an accident but I've noticed those reoccurring psychotic like thoughts that occur when I'm extremely tired.  Luckily my day ended up at least okay because I made a couple new friends at work.  But wow, what a crazy day.