Wow ! What a day....
I haven't written for awhile. I've still had my ups and downs. Things are changing in my life day to day, good or bad. I don't have a lot of control over some of things, but trying to take control of the things that I can.
May 31st, I fell on some water on a cement floor. Broke my left ankle, and Tuesday I had to have surgery on it. It broke the bone and then wedged into the other foot bones and shoved all upward. This Tuesday I go back get some xrays and put the real cast on for a month! No work for at least 6 weeks... Thanks God I had some money saved back. But now It has to go towards my debt. When I get back to work, I will have to work everyday. That sucks!
I don't hear from Eric anymore. The Eric84 from here where we met. we were together for 2 years, long distance. He wouldn't believe anything I would say to him. He kept saying I was seeing my x husband, WHICH I wasn't. But he was always right. Maybe it was for the best. He does have an anger issue, and always tried to tell me his actions were always caused by me. He was rude to me and didn't treat me as well as the time went on. BUT crazy as it may seem. I do miss talking to him. We used to talk everyday for hours, about everything and anything. But he is the one who quit talking. I don't think I've heard from him for probably going on a month. It was odd that after 2 years of no job, and me being there for him, he gets a job, and then all of a sudden,, he's changed. . At least I know that I didn't do anything to hurt us,, he can thank himself for that.
Now it's my turn to get my life turned around. I have a lot of things to change, but I can do it. It will take days, months, maybe years, but in the end, I will do it!
All these men I've had in my life, always take something from me, and make me feel worse about myself. I know that I am a really, really, nice women, and wouldn't hurt anyone.. and I know that I don't deserve to be treated the way these men have to me.
I just wonder if there really is a nice guy that is like me out there. I don't know..but I know I have to make me a better person first.
get my ankle healed, back to work, and try, try , try to stay positive.
May 31st, I fell on some water on a cement floor. Broke my left ankle, and Tuesday I had to have surgery on it. It broke the bone and then wedged into the other foot bones and shoved all upward. This Tuesday I go back get some xrays and put the real cast on for a month! No work for at least 6 weeks... Thanks God I had some money saved back. But now It has to go towards my debt. When I get back to work, I will have to work everyday. That sucks!
I don't hear from Eric anymore. The Eric84 from here where we met. we were together for 2 years, long distance. He wouldn't believe anything I would say to him. He kept saying I was seeing my x husband, WHICH I wasn't. But he was always right. Maybe it was for the best. He does have an anger issue, and always tried to tell me his actions were always caused by me. He was rude to me and didn't treat me as well as the time went on. BUT crazy as it may seem. I do miss talking to him. We used to talk everyday for hours, about everything and anything. But he is the one who quit talking. I don't think I've heard from him for probably going on a month. It was odd that after 2 years of no job, and me being there for him, he gets a job, and then all of a sudden,, he's changed. . At least I know that I didn't do anything to hurt us,, he can thank himself for that.
Now it's my turn to get my life turned around. I have a lot of things to change, but I can do it. It will take days, months, maybe years, but in the end, I will do it!
All these men I've had in my life, always take something from me, and make me feel worse about myself. I know that I am a really, really, nice women, and wouldn't hurt anyone.. and I know that I don't deserve to be treated the way these men have to me.
I just wonder if there really is a nice guy that is like me out there. I don't know..but I know I have to make me a better person first.
get my ankle healed, back to work, and try, try , try to stay positive.
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