wow. life sucks.

so...i LOVE drawing, oh boy but i have a HUGE insparation on instagram but she just left and i have been crying for hours because she was like my best friend but all of a sudden she left without an explanation and it destorys me because her art was soooo good and i would stare at it and try to copy what she drew in my own style but now shes gone and i dont have any of her other social medias and im so torn because that means i lost another friend and i have been losing friends for three days in a row. one said that she just pretending and another said that she hated me and this one left me and my dad has been getting mad because we spent all our money and we basically have no money. I have a crush on my bestest friend in the world but he is in a realasionship and i know that they are perfect for each other but we are also perfect but if i confessed i had feelings for him, then our friendship would be ruined so yea... WOW. life sucks.