Wow, its so much brighter these days.

I am in a very bad depression lately with terrible mood swings, plus arthritis pain that the cold whether doesn't help. I feel like I do not want to talk to anyone, I hate my boyfriend right now, he is not understanding of my problems, he just gets mad. I want to dump him, I don't even want to be around him at all lately. I blow up at my son who does not deserve me to treat him that way, but he is an angel for me because he does not get mad, he understands. That is why I think if I am with someone they should be understanding of my problems too or I shouldn't be with anyone like this. I do not feel like I can deal with any stress or difficult situations right now. I feel like I need to stop everything and do what my sons counselor said, take care of myself right now because nobody else is, my cup is empty because I gave away all my water and nobody put any back, except my son now that he realizes my situation is worsened lately. We moved and I am not adjusting well, along with financial worries, how to pay bills with no money. I have one friend I talk to a lot and she helps me feel ok but I need more friends who can be understanding so I decided to return to daily strength today, after a really bad thanksgiving and the commercialized Christmas stuff is about to be everywhere, and I just can not get into it. I have ADHD, Major Depression, possilby Bi-Polar, or menopause is really here. I cant take the meds they gave me, I have allergic reaction to them, and I do not see my pshyciatrist for 3 months.