Wow its been hard..
These last couple of days have been sooooo hard in this journey. I have had a hard time staying positive lately. I have been mean to my husband because I get sooo jeolous that he has a child and I don't. I feel like I just dont want to be married because sometimes being married reminds me of the family that I seem to cant have!! MY GOODNES I AM SOOOO FRUSTRATED I FEEL LIKE MY TIME WILL NEVER EVER COME!! I KNOW THAT NOT MY WILL BUT YOURS BE DONE GOD, BUT IT HURTS SOO BAD!! I WANT TO BE A MOMMY! =(