Wow it\'s been awhile.

Okay. So it has been a super long time since I have been on and I'm sorry to all my friends! I have been trying to get a pain medication that worked and was covered under the govnerment. No luck. Once thing that did work she {my doctor} gave me trials and was good, but cost $50 cdn for 2 WEEKS! I couldn't belive it. I then tryed some tynol and something my doctor said " complimented each other" did something to my stomach and was in more pain while taking the pills then without. I then, over the holidays, had trouble even getting up or walking I was in so much pain. Luckily I am now on paxil.{ my Mom and grandma was on} If I wasn't on paxil when I couldn't get up I would have thought more and maybe would have killed myself. But I have the best Mom. I couldn't leave her. My depresion is almost gone but I am, as of now, not on any pain meds so I'm in alot of pain. I went to see another rhyomatoligest { I suck at spelling} and he did alot more then the other. The 1st one I went to only made me sit on those bed things and tapped my knees with that weird thingy and felt my big joints. But this one talked to me, asked me tons of questions and for the first time asked me to explain the pain. He then got me to put on one of those robes and take everything off but my bra and undies { I was fine becasue my mom was in the room} and he did tons of bone checks and then I had blood test done and a what I call pee pee test. lol. They said to make another apointment so I go back on the 22nd but they called because my vitamen D was low and to take 1000units! So I went out and got some right away and that has helped tremendisly with the stiffness. I have babysat so much! The mother of the little girl told me about this book that her friend told her she just had to read and so she told me about it. You probably have heard of it. It's call Twilight. I have never read this far in a book that's 498 pages in my LIFE! I'm on page 90 and it's awesome already. Well that's all for now. I'll check once in a while for messages! See you!