Wow it's been 6 years from my last post

Some things don't change I guess. I got through my first betrayal of a marriage fairly unscathed. My son has adjusted well and we were doing great. I found a special woman who really made me feel special. She had 2 kids and we got married. It's difficult to blend families and it definitely wasn't easy. She had a lot of custody issues with her ex and her oldest was definitely very difficult. It was a tough road but we managed and were very much in love. Unfortunately things changed. After the lastest custody battle that my wife had with her ex, we were in deep trouble with our relationship. She had put a wall up and no longer reacted to me. She wanted space and I wasn't able to give it. I wanted to fix things. She turned elsewhere and created a inapproriate relationship with someone else. When i found out, I flipped out. She apologized but couldn't completely end that relationship. I still tried to push forward, but couldn't stop pressuring her. Finally it all came to a head and she ended it. I took it badly and my natural reaction was to defend and isolate myself. I can't say I am perfect and I probably should have gone back here to post and clear my head. but it didn't happen and now i am stuck trying to fix myself again.