Worse than I thought
I had a talk with my current roommate,"A." It seems like there's a lot more going on with me than I thought. Or at least, more than I am reacting to. Besides the living situation, I'm having issues with people in school, I'm losing friends left and right. She made a pretty huge comment about me being in the "transition" phase. Evidently, some of what's happening to me is fairly common with healthcare students.
Evidently, some of this is bugging me which is why I'm writing about it. That, I'm trying to maintain my fucking Thanksgiving break the best I can without flipping my shit. Yesterday almost got the best of me but luckily, I focused and got some stuff done.
It creeps in. That's why I write all this stuff. We all have our triggers and futility is mine. I don't have a lot in my life nor do I have a lot of joy in my life. That's why I'm fighting to keep even the smallest things going. When I hear the facts about what's going on in my life told to me by another person, I can't deny it. Things aren't going so hot. I think I blow off that fact. Always trying to be a little more mellow. Trying to not worry.
Don't really have much else to say. Just wanted to acknowledge that I have a lot going on. Trying to not let it get me down. Thanks for reading. Or not. It's all the same to me.
Evidently, some of this is bugging me which is why I'm writing about it. That, I'm trying to maintain my fucking Thanksgiving break the best I can without flipping my shit. Yesterday almost got the best of me but luckily, I focused and got some stuff done.
It creeps in. That's why I write all this stuff. We all have our triggers and futility is mine. I don't have a lot in my life nor do I have a lot of joy in my life. That's why I'm fighting to keep even the smallest things going. When I hear the facts about what's going on in my life told to me by another person, I can't deny it. Things aren't going so hot. I think I blow off that fact. Always trying to be a little more mellow. Trying to not worry.
Don't really have much else to say. Just wanted to acknowledge that I have a lot going on. Trying to not let it get me down. Thanks for reading. Or not. It's all the same to me.
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It always kind of sucks when something like that has been brought to your attention by someone else. Because you just blow it off, but when it\'s brought to your attention by \"an outsider\", it\'s validates that sown thing is actually going on.
I think it\'s great that you\'re writing about it and trying to keep your cool, that\'s a really good thing, losing your shit will only cause more problems. And that\'s why you do have to just focus on the smallest positive things you can, anything, to keep it together.
You can keep it together, just take a few deep breaths and take it on a little bit at a time. You got this!
Thanks J-dawg!
No problem Brasco!
doesn\'t matter about the friend thing. you go to school to learn, you don\'t go to school to make friends. even with that you will meet one or two people in each class who is a friend. another thing that helps tune it all out is wearing ear plugs a lot of the time or at least one ear plug. its called sound sensitivity and most musicians have that. it will help you focus.
if you want latin friends you can join latin american club, (student activities) its usually pretty active at most schools. so is student governments or writing reviews on music for the student newspaper.
#38lbs, thanks. I\'m really stubborn about going in to a situation with a preconceived idea (like people treating me decent for once). I\'m working on a different approach for next semester: fuck the haters. Get even with them by being better than they are at nursing. I\'m kind of a jerk that way :)