worry centers are full...2 entries in 1 day!!

so now i am sitting at my desk at work trying not to cry. having a shitty day at work, parents insane, sister refusing to take my calls, other sister on vacation in sunny florida. i call hubby every 1/2 hour for three hours to tell him something important. no answer. when i finally get him to answer.... slurry speech, one word answers, obvious that i called at an inconvenient time. tells me he fell asleep on the couch(where the phone is 6 inches from his head.) not wanting to confront about my suspicions i move onto the business of my parents situation and my upsetment at work, but he knew i was upset with him and then it was all my fault he says "what can i do to help you?" i want to say "just freakin stay sober", but i dont. so i have 11/2 hours left at work to prepare myself to be punished for daring to let on that i am aware of his backsliding. back to the behavioral star chart for me !! todays treat is that i will allow myself a good cry when i get home.