Worries- Current

I think I have a few worries that I need to try and work through...Where should today's list start?

John Jr and visitation... Or the lack of it, and no communication with his dad. I hope that the court will order in my favor. I wish they would just give him back...but at least to be able to see him would be better than nothing. Stressing about the money for a trip here even though my head knows that his Dad is supposed to cover it this year.

Damien- Is Damien doing okay? Can I get him involved in the people around him without his father getting involved as well? Is summer enough socialization from the neighborhood around us?

Paul- Will Paul do what the court wants? Is he going to agree? Will it affect Damien? 

Dayton- How is Dayton handling being in an orphanage? How is Dayton going to handle coming home? Is he going to fight because he really wants to learn how to be independent? Can he really learn to be independent living in an orphanage and being handed everything he needs now, but won't have as an adult? Did he hurt his sister (in my home?)?

Airianna- What is going on with her mentality? Where are these flashbacks (visions) coming from? How much trauma does this child have that she would all of a sudden have nightmares? Did Dayton hurt her (in my home)?

Work-How am I so far ahead, but everyone is behind me? Can I help anyone? Or just sit down shut up and do your work, don't talk to anyone, but rely on everyone else for what I need to do to complete my job....Though at least I can just clock in and work my 8 hours and then go home. 

Busses/Transportation-My neighbor hasn't been leaving on time (I think he decided that we are leaving later without bothering to discuss). I prefer to be on the earlier bus (getting to work at 7:55 am, which guarantees that I will be off by 4 pm and on the bus heading home at 4:05. But when he is late, I tend to be at work at 8:05, which means I can't leave until after my first bus home leaves, and the next one is not until 4:41, unless I happen to catch a different bus, but I can't even get near Pontiac and my ride home until nearly 5 pm, if not closer to 6.

I still feel upset that other people can easily get help, with only little effort, but I feel like if I need help, I have to figure out a way to get help from someone else, or (more likely) that I just have to figure out a way that I can help myself with my own needs. 

I feel upset because I treat people with decency but feel like no one actually considers me or my needs.