working through it
Feeling a bit better - even though I still been having some bad moments, it's getting better every day. I have never been publicly humiliated like that in my life ( about 170 people) and then to be ignored by the person that supported me - was just so upsetting that I had to do something to get through this.
Well, I believe that God works in mysterious ways and the timing of all the messages I've been receiving, lately, is NOT coincidental. I belong to two religious groups (long story) and both have and are really helping me to work through this. And I also received some very timely emails from a dear friend of mine that spoke to me in a way that I know it came from above.
I also do believe that good things do come from bad and even though it was an awful experience - I know I'll emerge as a much better person. Much to reflect on - much to pray about - and much to silence my head about too.
So - for now - I will quiet my head and heart and allow the Holy Spirit to work through me. Prior to this - I thought it was the case but now, reflecting back, I think I was "running the show" more than I should have been.
UPDATE: GUESS THE PROGRAM WAS A LOT BETTER THAN I THOUGHT. HEARD FROM THE MIDDLE SCHOOL PRINCIPAL. He said the program was excellent despite the technical difficulties. He also said that a parent called him and told him that after our presentation - she talked to her son for 2 hours. Even though I was bothered by what happened - I know that there was a reason for it. For one: it humbled me.
Well, I believe that God works in mysterious ways and the timing of all the messages I've been receiving, lately, is NOT coincidental. I belong to two religious groups (long story) and both have and are really helping me to work through this. And I also received some very timely emails from a dear friend of mine that spoke to me in a way that I know it came from above.
I also do believe that good things do come from bad and even though it was an awful experience - I know I'll emerge as a much better person. Much to reflect on - much to pray about - and much to silence my head about too.
So - for now - I will quiet my head and heart and allow the Holy Spirit to work through me. Prior to this - I thought it was the case but now, reflecting back, I think I was "running the show" more than I should have been.
UPDATE: GUESS THE PROGRAM WAS A LOT BETTER THAN I THOUGHT. HEARD FROM THE MIDDLE SCHOOL PRINCIPAL. He said the program was excellent despite the technical difficulties. He also said that a parent called him and told him that after our presentation - she talked to her son for 2 hours. Even though I was bothered by what happened - I know that there was a reason for it. For one: it humbled me.
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Hmmm, two thoughts. First, end of the year issues at school tend to consume administrators and teachers and so their time is turned inward. While thank yous are GREAT; do you want to do this for the acknowledgment or simply because it\'s the right thing to do? Could you do this without feedback? Would you continue to do this if the feedback was consistently negative? Would you feel \"freer\" if you eliminated the expectation for external validation by others to continue this important community education? This is hard work -- look internally for the satisfaction/gratification! Everything else is icing on the cake!!!! Remember, you are making a difference in the lives of others!!! Take Care